Look who I got to meet!

I got to meet my cousins new little one.... His name is Parker and he is adorable! I got to see what it would be like if I had my own little one while I was there. I got to take care of him for two nights while I was there and it was a joy to get up with him at 2 and 3 am! I know I say that because I don't have one that I get up with all the time. However, after all we have been through I would give anything to have that more than 2 days :)

Not only did I get to love on the cute new little one... I got to spend a lot of time with my sister which was awesome. Also my cousin is very handy and built his own pool with a tiki bar.... its amazing and was very relaxing and much needed! Now back to reality!

Ten things... unknown!!

A friend that has been an inspiration to me and like another mother, Love Being a Nonny, has tagged me in post. The tag is to name 10 things "unknown" about me. It might be a little difficult, but I'm gonna try!



1. I had always wanted to get married on a baseball field.

2. I am terrified of cotton balls... (crazy I know, but its true)

3. Secretly I've always been jealous of my sister and how she has no fear to go out and conquer what ever goal she has set. She lets nothing hold her back...wish I was more like her.

4. If I could change anything about myself- it would be my fair skin! ha- I would love to know what it is like to have a for real tan!

5. I really want to be a principal one day

6. I would love to be a missionary for a year in Romania. I think I left a piece of my heart there when I did mission trip there two years in a row.

7. I don't like to read- but I teach English...ironic I know! (I think I have read a total of 5 books so far)

8. Im stealing this one from Love Being a Nonny- but I dont know how to drive a straight drive.

9. I have my bus liscense. No yellow buses but I drive the white activity buses for coaching!

10. My hubby has taken me hunting several times since we have been married and I killed my first dear a year ago!



There are ten things hopefully "unknown"!!



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Life in a Small Town

Still alive!!

Im still here!! I have been sooo busy with end of year paperwork and testing. EC teachers live in paperwork the last weeks of school! Its almost over and I have a lot of updating to do! Dont worry Im still alive and coming back soon!!

Update on Life now...

Hi guys! I have taken a small break from the blog world just to deal with things. Things are going good right now. I am starting to focus on losing all the weight I have gained on the fertility drugs. I got a good 20 lbs just from the drugs... not to mention I could stand to loose about 20 more! So I am going back to the gym and tanning bed (I know its bad for you- but I need it!). Its nice to return back to everyday life in a way. Things are busy which is good for now! Hubby's new job is going great and the Lord is really blessing him in that way!

So I have decided to set some goals for this summer. Here they are! Ill update and hopefully blog about them as we enjoy the summer!
1. Loose weight! (at least 20 lbs by end of July- already down 3!!)
2. Organize my closets and storage!
3. Start summer workouts for school volleyball team and take them to camp!
4. Work as much as possible at Dick and Janes!! (one of my favorite places with great people!)
5. Be a better wife
6. spend more time with my sister now that she is living back in town
7. Go see my lil bro play baseball ( I didnt get to go to a single game this school season- first time ever :( )
8. RELAX!

Ill probably add to the last as time passes!

Happy Easter!

How amazing that we serve a God that is Alive! Even with all that we have been going through I still stand amazed at what an incredible God we serve. He gave His life that I might live.... how can you not serve Him! Happy Easter!

Things are good here....I have kept myself busy this time after getting the news. It has been nice. I have spells where it just gets to me for a few minutes and I cry for a few and then move on. I think those times will continue... but at least I know I am not alone. I am heading to the beach with one of my girlfriends tonight and staying til Wednesday...It will be nice just to get away! You know I have amazing people in my life and I am sooo thankful to all of you that have covered me and hubby in prayers during this situation. If you read my blog and you are blessed to have children.... please for me, hug them, love them and hold them tight. I think sometime we forget just how lucky we are to have them around. I know next time I see my step daughter I might just squeeze her a little tighter. :) (*for those who are curious we have talked about adoption but right now I do not feel emotionally ready to embark on that journey. Possibly in the future. All in Gods timing)

Happy Easter!! Im off to enjoy Spring Break!!!

results...

BFN....I am speechless at the moment. This was our last try and last attempt. I never thought it would not be part of Gods plan for me to not have my own children...but I guess thats our God, its His plan not mine. I just wish I could understand why.....

Waiting.....

Today was the day that I went to get my blood taken and get the results of our FET. I have to admit that hubby and I took a test yesterday since he wouldnt be with me today for the results. I was absolutely devastated to see that it was negative. I immediately gave up hope...but I have amazing friends and family. Who reminded me we serve an amazing God and a God of miracles....So I am waiting. I am waiting in reality but with Hope. Im not sure what the results will be, but I will post them sometime today or tomorrow. Even if it is negative I have learned so much in this journey and God has taught me so many things about myself and my relationship with Him. I know I will be upset and devastated, but I also know that He does have a plan. If its positive then it proves just what an amazing God we serve.